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So yesterday I talked to my case worker. We talked about a couple of things, basically my bpd and my psychosis. Cause I've been diagnosed with both. And he had suggest I probably should start trying to do about 20 hours a week of activities. But like scheduled ones.

I need help brain storming some. I think its more pleasureful activities he is wanting me to do. (So not 'well I spend so many hours a week looking after my piggies!!' lol. Although I will say I feel happy cleaning and looking after my babies! they popcorn when there cage gets clean and other things. Its like 'yes! fresh hay! I'm happy' - 'Mom you cleaned up my poopies! I'm so happy! ' )

Like I know once a week for me I go to my support group for bpd. That is a 1 and a half hours.

When it was the summer I went swimming 2 times a week. I attempted to do cross stitching. (I still wanna do it, but I haven't had time.)

I need to brain storm ideas and maybe work on a schedule. I also am thinking I might make a little check box thing so I can actually check off that I did them.

industrial piercing

I really want to get my industrialist done sometime this year. Maybe around my birthday or sooner. I've wanted my ears done like this since I was a 16, but I've never had the courage to go. However I'm older now and I feel ready. Nervous for when it happens and I'll most likely be scared and want my boyfriend to come in with me so I can hold someones hand. (or I'll bring my stuffie... cause needles can make some people uncomfortable. )

I really love the look of the gold bars, or rose gold bars, or the ones with pretty gem stones.

(Like this picture shows a bar with opal and probably a diamond-ish crystal. I would love to get a couple with like amethyst or rose quartz cause I like both of those stones. )

My only real worry is being told my ear might not be the right shape. My ears are tiny and they kinda look like elf ears.  But I guess thats something I also can bring up with the piercing. I mean there might not even be a problem. Ears are ears right? 

I saw "It" Last night!

I've been watching scary movies lately. I've been watching what I feel like for the most part are good scary movies. I saw "The thing". The one from the 80's and a couple of other really good scary movies.  I still am not a huge fan of gore-y things.

So last night I saw the movie IT last night. It was really good. I really liked it. I tend to feel like a lot of modern day movies really abuse the jump scares, this one didn't. It is creepy and different points made me feel uncomfortable, but it was still good.

Update

Hello everyone,

I haven't posted in while on here. I've been really quiet lately.  My last post was back in July.  I've been busy since than.  Although I wasn't really busy with super cool important things. Like getting some cool job somewheres or something else like that. I've been pretty busy. So I thought I would do an update.

My piggy girls are doing well. Leda and Rosie are pretty happy in there cage. They are also enjoying there cuddle time. I was also able to keep them cool during the summer, and I'm so glad I was able to do that. The summer was a huge worry for me, once the heat hit. I was extremely worried my babies could get heat stroke and die. But they didn't and I did a good job keeping them hydrated. They got a lot of cucumber days and a lot of days of cool dark places to hid. I look up and got some ideas of how to keep there cage cool. Plus we also have an air coordinator.

(This is Rose hiding. XD I see your little paw baby girl.) 

There both doing really well, and now its fall, so days are getting shorter and also cooler which means a lot of there cooling down stuff isn't needed to be done.  Oh they also got to do a sleep over at someones house when I was away. That was pretty exciting for them.

For the mental health side I've went out swimming a lot at sooke potholes. I think we went twice a week most of the summer. It was really nice. I love the water. I also like if you swim upstream a little you can always get away from people. Which is really nice.

 One of the other nice things about this is I was able to go out and do actives. Which is really important when fighting mental illness. I'm trying to isolate myself less because when I isolate I make myself a lot worst. Also when I isolate I often just sleep, which means my body isn't making the chemicals it needs to be happy. And I'm also than not doing physical activity. So for me its really important. More so with the goal of wanting to recovery from mental illness.

I also had a really nice camping trip this summer too. I got to jump into glaicer water and I got to go to parksville again. I also got to make smores, drink some booze. and I got to relax. Which I think is the most important part. I was really nervous about camping cause I tend to find it stressful. But I found it pretty enjoyable.

Also one of my friends from Alberta came to see me, I felt pretty happy about that. We went to the gardens out here too.  It was really nice, and I'm so happy I got to see her. I haven't seen her since I was 19. So thats like 5 years now? =) It was just nice to spend time with someone who is really kind.

What else... Oh I went on my first trip to Vancouver by myself. I didn't see anyone, but I did get to go around van by myself. I went to daiso and a couple of places I know really well. I also got to go to hot topic for the first time- which was pretty exciting.   I went to the mall too that was close to the ferry station.