What I've completed so far in my life

With my illnesses and my low self esteem sometimes Its hard to remember all of the things I've done. There is some things I think I should always credit myself for, like waking up in the morning, eating, taking my meds, and remember that days come one at a time, hour by hour. But sometimes that isn't enough. Sometimes I can still be really hard on myself. So one of the things I've started to do is track things I've finished off of my bucket list. Its important I think to sometimes remember really great things you've done in the passed year that you wanted to do. 

So this is my list of bucket list items from this year, 

✔️ Do marine biology- This has been on my list since I was a little girl. I've always been drawn to the ocean and I still am. I would still like to do something to do with the marine life in our local area. I also would love to do something for our orcas out here. I mean, they are beautiful, and powerful creatures, and I want to look after them somehow!
✔️Go whale watching - this was on my list, I sadly didn't see any whales, but I did get to see a lot of really cute sea animals, and see California sea lions! Oh and I also saw a super super super cute sea otter too!
✔️Weed -  This was on my list, but I finally tried it this year. I did it about 2-ish times and I think I really enjoyed it. I only ever did a little bit and I was really comfortable. Its not as scary as I thought it would be. I do remember asking "What do I do?" and "how does this work." xD
✔️Grow my hair out - This one is going to be added because I have successful not ripped or even chopped all my hair off this year! so YAY! Go me. Its also long, I still want it to be longer.  But I have done a really good job with growing my hair out.
✔️Figure out what path I want to do for witchcraft - I'm pretty happy that I've been able to figure out what magical path I want to go down, and I think sea magic is the best choice for me.
✔️Meet and talk to people who are also passionate about sea stars- BECAUSE THIS HAPPENED AND IT MADE ME SO FREAKIN' HAPPY.
✔️ Get better with my anxiety - I feel like my anxiety is something I have been working on really well. I wouldn't call it done or fixed but I feel like I'm at a different stage then I was about a year ago.

This is my last one:
✔️Feeling more comfortable with the way I am. - I feel like over this year I've learnted more things about me, and have uncovered things I didn't know about myself. I've also been able to kinda see myself throughout the fog I've been dealing with, I've also been able to take myself away from things that are really toxic or are a struggle. So I feel like this year I have became more comfortable with myself then what I have been in the passed few years I've been. I'm not perfect and I'm not no longer uncomfortable with me. I'm just better with a lot of things I've figured out. 

I want to see her live

One of the next people I want to see live is Lady Gaga, I've only been to one concert in my life and I saw LIGHTS who I total adore and I really think is freaking cute and her music speaks to me and helps me out so much when I have gloomy days. And Lady Gaga is someone else whose music gets me out of the bad moods, her music is just so bouncy and happy and her song born this way is one of my favorites. I really would love to see Lady Gaga live someday. I'm not sure if her concert would be a place for someone with social anxiety and social phobia to go to. Maybe if I saw her live and went with someone like my friend Gayle then It wouldn't be so bad. We both have anxiety problems so we could be anxious together.

But I would love to see Lady Gaga someday.

Added Items to bucket List

• Finish my calico critters doll house. 
• Get a New ipod
• Try something from Lush. 
• Get a Pet Ferret
• Move into a house that is pet friendly
• Do some more Vlogs
• Get a christian piercing. 
• Make something beautiful
• Donate food to a food bank. (baby food and gluten free food)
• Get one of my photographs published. 
• Meet the Cast of Sons of Anarchy
• Try food from all over the world
• Try candy from all over the world
• Donate to a fund that helps wild life I care about. Such as bats, Lions, tigers, leopards and other animals. 
• Go to Beatrix potter's house.

I'm adding these to my bucket list. 

My Bucket List

This is just a list of all the things that are on my bucket list at this moment in time. I'll add more things when I want too. I'd like to try and go through next year around this time to see what's I've checked off or I have had added. 

• Travel to Italy
• Travel to  England
• Travel to  Egypt
• Travel to  Ireland
• Travel to  Greek Islands
• Travel to Scotland
• Travel All around Asia.
• Travel to Australia
• Travel to Wales
• Travel to Northern Ireland
• Travel to Iceland
• Travel to Denmark
• Travel to Norway
• Travel to Fiji
• Travel to Hawaii
• Travel to Florida
• Travel to PEI
• Travel to New Brunswick.
• Travel to Tofine (BC)

Aspirations:

• Go back to school and upgrade course so I can get into a collage.  - I'm doing apart of that right now. :3 
• Take Marine Biology!
• Get married one day even if it’s a simple set up for the marriage.  (With 50 people!)
• Keep going with the healthy way I am right now.
• Recover from my anxiety, depression, PTSD.
• Being a professional mermaid, Educated people on marine life and why it can’t be treated the way it’s being treated.
• Write a book about my life, Be published.
• Be in a magazine
• Be a mum
• Learn Irish Gaelic.
• Get back into gymnastics
• Learn to swim and dive and hold my breathe under water for at least a minute!
• Learn to Pole Dance.
• Get my dream job
• Learn the Violin.
• Learn/ Try surfing
• Do couples dancing. Either ballroom or salsa.
• Get a farm or big chuck of land I can make into a home for feral cats, and cats people no longer want.  This would be non-profit.
• Getting a farm for my highland cows, dogs, and sheep, and a pet piggy!
• Get a Job. For now I want a Part time/Full time job somewheres.

Miscellaneous:

• Write a letter to a Disney Princess!
• See Killer whales when they migrate in the spring.
• Go see Cirque Du Soleil
• Watch the metro shower. Also spend a summer night looking at the stars finding things in the sky.
• Getting a mermaid fin, and learning to swim in it, and be a performing mermaid!
• Get a second ear piercing
• See the Blood Moon.
• See Anne of Green Gables live
• Go to the Green Gables original site
• Try Weed
• Go to burning man
• Go to shakespeare’s globe and watch a play there.
• Get money from all over the world.
• Collect gem stones/shells/teeth/bones that I found myself.
• Build A tree house that can double as a house I could sleep in as an adult in the summer.
• Learn to knit
• Learn to crochet
• Build a house for someone else in need.
• Do all my cosplays I want to do for conventions. 
• Find, & volunteer, for a charity group or two that I truly believe in
• Pose nude for a drawing
• Deep sea dive
• Swim with whales, dolphins, sharks, Manatees, sea turtle, and other super sweet ocean life! In there natural habit! (And in a safe and controlled manner.)
• Get a pet kitty again
• Build a fairy home
• Go Winter Camping
• Relax in a natural hot spring
• Collecting feathers from all over the world
• Go to Walt Disney World, And Disney Land 
• Start and Finish a Wreak this Journal
• See Fairy Pools in Scotland
• Get all the Sky Doll Comics
• Go to Keukenhof
• Adopt a whale, shark and dolphin.
• Do Gold panning
• Go Kayaking
• Go Skinny dipping
• Color all of the pages in a coloring book
• Have a pen pal
• Have a paint war
• Go to a Renaissance fair
• Get back into pottery.
• Go to a Slut walk
• Try out Horse Back Riding
• Participate In a huge pillow fight.
• Run In the Goddess Run.
• Have My Dad Walk me down the aisle when I get Married.
• Swim in ever body of water that I can find.
• Have a pet red fox. (You can’t in BC!)
• Go whale watching
• Attend a Masquerade
• Learn to shoot a gun.
• Go to the Studio Ghibli Museum
• Get a bow and do archery
• Plant my own garden
• Go Ziplining
• Feed Bats
• Get My Tattoo(s) I want.
• Go to a mermaid festival
• Meet LIGHTS In person
• Have a Nerf gun war with friends.
• Stay In a Ice Hotel
• Learn to Irish Dance
• Go to Weeki Wachee & see mermaids
• Go to Craigdarroch Castle
• Go to Victoria Bug Zoo
• Go to the Zoo In Vancouver
• Go to Stanley Park.
• Go to Science World
• Go see the Nut Cracker Live
• Go to M&M’s World
• Watch a sunrise
• Start My Sea Glass Shop on Etsy
• Make a lot of my own beauty products
• Grow my hair out
• Go Paddle Boarding
• Make something I will use from knitting or crocheting
• See Fireflies.

Meet Famous people

• Meet Hannah the Mermaid.
• Meet LIGHTS
• Meet Lynda Cater
• Meet Taylor Momsen
• Meet Miss Mosh
• Meet Dita Von Teese

Kinky.

• Go to Taboo in Vancouver.
• Be suspend in Shibari rope bondage for a fetish night.
• Try Rope Bondage
• Get a Leather Harness
• Kink Fest 

My list will grow, and I'll find more things that I would like to do and try. But this is my current list and I really like it. I feel like a lot of my goals are real goals. And things that when I achieve them I'll feel proud.