My Monster High Minis I have so far!

Draculaura - Power Ghouls, Getting Ghostly

Abbey Bominable - Original, Candy Ghoul

Ari Hauntington - Getting Ghostly, Sleepover ghouls

Catrine DeMew- Original

Catty Noir - Original, Pattern

Clawdeen Wolf- Sleep Over Ghouls

Cleo De Nile- Candy Ghoul, Beach Ghouls

Frankie Stain - Original, Rag Doll

Lagoona Blue - Original, Power Ghouls

Rochelle Goyle- Original, Power Ghouls

Skelita Calaveras- Original

Toralei Strpie - Original

Venus Mcflytrap - Circus

Toys

Toys for me, they make me happy. They make me feel Innocent again. They make me feel calm and relaxed. They bring me comfort. They also give me something to look forward to. I like collecting toys.

New Books!

So I've been doing some reading about healing. I've been looking into regression therapy and how it can help with trauma.  Reclaiming your life is what I'm currently reading and its really good. I like it cause it goes though and explains regression and repression and how it works. And how as a child we repress things because its better for us. Our safety.  So its really good to read. I'm still not dipping to deep into trauma work cause its really hard and it is also really exhausting and it is really upsetting.

So I'd rather take little parts. My Worker also thinks my books are interesting! 

I also bought the one called Nice Girls Syndrome cause I tend to be a nice girl, and it tends to make me be a door mat and I want to learn not to be a door mat. :x

Garden Plans!

I'm planning out my balcony garden. I can't grow a bunch of things. But I'm going to pick a couple of things that are really yummy that we can grow this year. I wanna grow some yummy veggies. At least 2 and I also want to plant at least 2 fruits, along with some flowers. I also am going to be buying a humming bird feeder this year too.

I'm excited for spring to come and for this snow to melt so I can start planning more and buying the seeds I need and pots!

Me

Snow man

We rarely get snow on Vancouver Island and we got snow yesterday and my boyfriend and I went to the university to go play in the snow with his other girlfriend. :) We had fun! And look! The snow man is taller then me! 

I really hope you are still standing mr. snow man. :) 

It also was a lot of fun to play in the snow. I haven't played in the snow since I went to ontario to see my family. 

Long time no post

I haven't really posted lately on here. I'm sorry, I feel like I've abandon this place. I didn't mean too. 

 Mostly haven't posted on here cause I haven't been sure what to post about. Christmas holidays came and went. And you know, I did have a good Christmas. I did presents with my boyfriend and his daughter.  And it was fun. I do still find that season hard, but I'm glad thats over.

Mostly this year so far has been my depression setting in and settled down for a bit. Low energy has been a thing. I've mostly been watching netflix and other shows to keep me busy during the days of depression. I hate laying in bed all the time when being depressed. I worry about doing nothing and I worry about how people are going to preserve me because of my depression and how I do nothing.  Which really sucks and it complies more stress and upset and makes depression worst because self worth goes onto of it.  So I try and do things during the day. even if its tiny or things people take for granted, like watching tv. I watched Gilmore Girls, I watched the walking dead, I've watch a couple of documentary's. But none the less its left a mess before getting up and moving on for a bit. 

So I'm getting back to normal. My energy is spiking back up, and I'm not feeling as bed bound as I was before and I have interest in doing stuff again. I'm feeling really good. 

Also I've been learning more about myself lately. I have really learned about my mood and how its really connected with situations and I'm becoming more aware of when stuff could upset me. I've been using the fact checking skills a lot more. I want to try and learn not to be caught up in my emotions. 

I've also be reading a lot about repression and about trauma and how the body stores trauma/traumatic events. I'm learning more which is something I want to do. I feel like the most I do self exploring the better I will become with myself.   And I know thats important in the long run. Is having a healthier me.